I really am in love with being a mom of two. Eight months out, I like, or, I’m used to, breaking up “sibling” fights over half eaten crackers and managing butt wiping and breastfeeding. I like that they have each other. I like that they are close in age but yet still in their own development moments that allow me to enjoy two overlapping worlds of babbling baby and “speaking” toddler.
I’ve gotten used to this life as a mom of two, the fullness of it, so well that when I have just one of my girls, it feels strange.
When I have just one, like I did for varying moments this weekend, I always feel like I have so much more time, which is a good thing, but very strange when you’re so used to having so little time.
When I really did have just one it was my keys. I would always forget my keys on the top of my car. And while usually, the bike rack would prevent them from sliding off onto the road, one time it didn’t. One time, I had to explain to my husband why I, with a baby, had to pull over on a freeway to get my keys from the road.
Now, it’s not keys but a human being that I feel like I’m forgetting when I have only one.
When I have just one, I do a lot of my writing for here, Baby Gizmo, and other places. I can hear my breath more easily. I am more laxed on my household chores. I can see them more easily as individuals who while enjoying this group ride also need me alone, sometimes.
Sometimes it’s nice to be a mom of one and to have the thought that there’s another one who will soon be coming back into the picture to make our picture complete. Sometimes, it’s nice to try to remember what you were complaining about back then and why it seemed so hard then.
Sometimes it’s nice to remember to be thankful of how far you’ve come in your motherhood journey and of the beautiful smiles, boos boos and tears along the way.
Sometimes it’s nice to really have two beautiful girls and get a reprieve with just one.
Can you relate? Do you find that having just one child feels so much easier than having two but that having all of your children feels most complete because that’s your new, loved life?
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Congratulations! I’ll be emailing today with details on how to claim your reward! And thank you all who entered my giveaway! This was the last giveaway in honor of my blog’s birthday, but more will be coming soon!