I am returning from a very long vacation where I engaged in very little social media-ing. Usually when this happens, or when I don’t do social media for an extended amount of time and suddenly do social media, when I return this happens: I go on overload. Reading everything I think I’ve missed. Catching up on all the things and, often, beating myself up for not doing a better job at staying on top of allthethings. Emails, tweets, unimportant and important conversations. Sometimes in going from not listening to listening to what everyone else is doing, I’ll read something inspiring that someone else is doing and wish I were doing it, too. I say inspired but sometimes it’s envy. I wish I had…
I’ll do this for like an hour, or until I realize what’s wrong with wishing for things you don’t have just because someone else has (or seems) to have them. You miss out on seeing what you do have.
You miss out on living in the present moment and embracing the temporality of right now.
I sometimes think about what I learned most from my dad’s death and I think it’s that. All that we have is right now. You can use right now to wish for all the things you don’t have. Or you can use it to love all the things you do. You can choose to feel discouraged by all the things you’ve yet to do. Or you can choose to feel encouraged that at least right now, you have all the time to do them. You can live your life wishing for a life that isn’t yours. Or you can live your life.
I hope you live your life. I hope instead of spending your days asking “why me?”, you have the courage to ask “why not me?”
Love, Jessica ❤︎